Omniscient God

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Omniscient God

So, the Lord taught me a lesson this week. I was fretting about our future, our baby angels’ futures, what’s going to happen to them, what’s going to happen to us, etc. The enemy had gotten a hold of my mind and was throwing doubt where faith used to be. I could feel my heart weakening as I tried to regain control of this situation from God. Through this whole fostering process, I constantly have to remind myself that God is in control. He sees the future, the beginning and the end, and He will not do anything outside of His perfect plan. But, when doubt starts to creep in, I begin questioning God’s plan. I start asking Him, “Why are You allowing this to happen?” or “Don’t You know that’s not good for the babies?” I’m completely humbled when I think of how ignorant that is to question the Almighty God & that’s exactly what He taught me this week. He led me to this verse in 1 Samuel 2:2-3, “There is none holy as the Lord: for there is none beside thee: neither is there any rock like our God. Talk no more so exceeding proudly; let not arrogancy come out of your mouth: for the Lord is a God of knowledge, and by him actions are weighed.”

The part that really stepped on my toes was, “Talk no more exceeding proudly; let not arrogancy come out of your mouth.” Yikes! I was arrogantly questioning God’s ways. Thankfully, my Heavenly Father lovingly chastises me and reminds me continuously that He is in control. I’m thankful that He truly IS in control, especially when I feel out of control. I felt the Lord kept telling me, “I AM Omniscient. I AM all-knowing. I AM in control of this situation.” So, I decided to look up the word “Omniscient”, just to be sure I knew exactly what He was talking about.  And, this is what it means:

having complete or unlimited knowledge, awareness, or  understanding; perceiving all things

He was reminding me that HE IS completely aware of my situation. He hasn’t forgotten me. He’s still got this under control. Praise Jesus.

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Here’s a few more Scriptures the Lord led me to that are a good reminder of His all-knowing character. I pray they will be an encouragement to you in whatever you may be facing today. Remember, even when you feel out of control, God is ALWAYS in control.

 

“… before me there was no God formed, neither shall there be after me.” Isaiah 43:10

 

“…I am the first, and I am the last; and beside me there is no God.” Isaiah 44:16

 

“Thus saith the Lord, thy Redeemer, the Holy One of Israel;  I am the Lord thy God which teacheth thee to profit, which leadeth thee by the way that thou shouldest go.” Isaiah 48:17

 

“Am I a God at hand, saith the Lord, and not a God afar off? Can any hide himself in secret places that I shall not see him? saith the Lord. Do not I fill heaven and earth? saith the Lord.” Jeremiah 23:23-24

 

“Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh: is there any thing too hard for me?” Jeremiah 32:27

 

“The eyes of the Lord are upon the righteous, and his ears are open unto their cry.” Psalm 34:15

 

“The eyes of the Lord are in every place, beholding the evil and the good.” Proverbs 15:3

 

“I am Alpha and Omega, the beginning and the ending, saith the Lord, which is, and which was, and which is to come, the Almighty.” Revelation 1:8

 

“O the depth of the riches both of the wisdom and knowledge of God! how unsearchable are his judgments, and his ways past finding out! For who hath known the mind of the Lord? or who hath been his counsellor? Or who hath first given to him, and it shall be recompensed unto him again? For of him, and through him, and to him, are all things: to whom be glory for ever. Amen.” Romans 11:33-36

 

And one of my favorite verses…

“Declaring the end from the beginning, and from ancient times the things that are not yet done, saying, My counsel shall stand, and I will do all my pleasure:” Isaiah 46:10

God’s richest blessings,

Emily

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My Silent Prayer

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My Silent Prayer

Today was kind of hard. One of our little angels had her first 4-hour visit with mom in the mom’s home. I’m always nervous on the day of visits because I don’t really know what is going on. After every visit, baby girl comes back fussy, she doesn’t make eye contact with me and she just wants me to hold her for a couple of hours until she eventually falls asleep. I know she needs that time with her mom, but it’s so hard for me to see her upset like that. She is only two months old, but I think these visits bring back unpleasant memories.

I pray for these precious angels on a daily basis, but many times they are silent prayers. Oftentimes, I feel like I’m lacking the right words when I come before the Heavenly Father. When I pray for them, I really try to move myself out of the way. But, how do you pray for the Lord’s will when you really want YOUR will to be done? How do you honestly pray for what’s best for them when you feel like YOU know what’s best?  Sometimes, I’m just left silently pouring out my heart to the Lord. No words needed. Just my soul desperately crying out for His intervention.

I wrote this prayer/poem a couple of years ago when my mom was diagnosed with Stage 3 Ovarian cancer. I still pray this prayer many times in many different situations. I’ve learned that even when we don’t know what to say, God hears our silent cries and is faithful to send the needed peace, comfort and strength. So incredibly thankful for that today. Speechless

I’m speechless as I come before You
The world around me rushes on.
I’m so weak and tired, Lord,
But, I know that You are strong.

As, I bow my head before You,
My heart burdened from the load,
I know that You alone are mighty,
To guide me down this unknown road.

The way seems rough & rocky,
With some unforeseen twists & curves;
Yet, I know that You’ll gently carry me
And calm my fretful nerves.

As I pray, my mouth is empty,
Yet my heart has much to say.
Tears come streaming down my face,
And You gently wipe them away.

You see each tear, hear each prayer,
Though silent they may be.
The very desires, cries of my heart,
Are remembered by You, my King.

Though long may be the wait,
And rough may be the ride.
I’ll continue on in confidence,
Assured that You’re by my side.

“I’ll wait patiently on the Lord”
He who shows me, “great & mighty things”.
Because as I’ve learned in Sunday School,
It’s not over ‘til the trumpet rings.

There’s still healing to be claimed,
Still miracles to be done.
Still battles to be fought,
Still victories to be won!

There’s still a King on His throne,
Still a God so mighty & great!
There’s still power in the blood,
There’s still Jesus- He’s never late.

“Be Still” you softly speak to my soul,
My words today are very few.
As I walk along this unknown path,
Lord, I’ll lift my silent prayer to You.

God’s richest blessings,

Emily

7 Things I’ve Learned About Fostering

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Well, this is officially the first post of my new blog. So, thank you for stopping by to check it out!

My husband & I opened our home to foster children on 10/9/15. So far, we have had 4 baby girls come through our home (2 of which are still with us). It’s already been more emotional than I could’ve imagined, but we’ve also learned a lot. If you’re thinking about fostering, or maybe you are a foster parent, hopefully this will be helpful!

  1. Fostering is exhausting -Mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically. It’s just draining. Yes, I’m sure being a brand, spankin’ new mom has something to do with it as well. But, when you add in all of the court dates, parental visits, doctor appointments, new daycare, teaching this child a routine, and the unknown of what’s going to happen, it really weighs on you in every aspect.
  2. Fostering takes a lot of prayer. No wait, that’s an understatement. Insert a grander work for “a lot” and multiply it by 1,000 and that’s how much prayer it takes. Not even kidding. I don’t know how people go through this process without the Lord. Several nights I have laid in bed praying for strength, protection, wisdom, guidance, future court hearings, the birth family, these precious foster babies in our home, the other foster children that don’t have a bed for the night, other foster families- the list goes on & on. Justin & I alone require so much strength and help from the Lord that it keeps us praying continuously.
  3. Fostering requires a lot of support. I’m sure there are families that have done this one their own, with no help from family or friends. Kudos to you. However, for us, we rely heavily on help from our families, pastor, friends, co-workers, etc. Not even just physical help, but really the encouraging words mean more than anything. When someone says, “We are here if you need you anything”, “We are praying for you”, or “You’re doing a great job”, those words are like gold to me. If I’m having a rough day, they just encourage and lift my spirit. We really couldn’t do this without the support of our friends and family.
  4. Fostering is a different kind of parenting. We knew this going into it that these children are not “ours” entirely. Of course, we love them as if they are completely and entirely ours, but they did have a life before they came to our home. We have only had babies so far, all under the age of 6 months. Thankfully, we’ve been able to create bonds with them quickly and easily. However, we did miss out on the first few weeks of their life. We don’t know exactly how much they weighed when they were born or what all they may have experienced at home before they came to us. People give us tips, which we greatly appreciate, but sometimes it doesn’t work the same with foster children because they’re experiencing something totally different. They may have not known before what it’s like to sleep in a crib, to get fed when they’re hungry, to be kissed and cuddled, to have their needs met instantly, or just to feel loved and protected. Another difference, there are only a handful of people that can legally babysit our children. They had to be fingerprinted, background checked and fill out gobs of paperwork, just to possibly get to watch our children for a few hours one day. Also, we may not let you hold our baby for awhile, because we are still trying to create a bond with them. We will be the one’s to feed them, change their diaper and put them to sleep for the first couple of months. We want them to understand what it’s like to have consistency and normalcy because they’ve never experienced that before. We want them to learn to trust us as their caregivers and not have to wonder what bed they’ll sleep in tonight or who;s going to feed them and if they’ll get fed. If we can teach them to EXPECT that trust and loyalty, hopefully that will carry over to when they do go back home and they will continue to expect that from their birth parents. So, to make a long story short, foster parenting is quite different than regular parenting.
  5. Fostering requires patience. Here I go speaking in understatements again! I have never been a very patient person. I’m very strong-willed and when I get something in my head, I do everything I can to get it accomplished as quickly as possible. So, needless to say, patience is something I haven’t quite mastered yet! Thankfully, my husband is a wonderfully patient man who is able to calm me down and level me out. So, when it came to going through the fostering process, I relied on him a lot to remind me of our goals and keep me on track!  Anyways, enough about my amazing husband!  😉  With becoming foster parents, there’s so much paperwork, classes, home visits, background checks, meetings- and that’s just before you get a child. Thankfully, our process of becoming foster parents from our very first meeting to the day our house was opened was exactly 4 months- which is not long at all! We had wonderful people working hard on our behalf and I’m SO thankful for that! But let me tell you, those 4 months felt like 4 years! And, now that we have children, we are learning to work with caseworkers, attorneys, the birth parents, CASA workers, doctors, and daycare workers. We are all trying to correspond our schedules to make sure the child is taken care of. Sometimes, we don’t get all of the information we’d like or sometimes we find out about something at the last minute. Sometimes, it feels like we are just waiting until the next court hearing or the next visit to see what’s going to happen. While learning how this whole process works does require a lot of patience, we have, so far, worked with wonderful people who have made everything flow so much smoother!
  6. Fostering has a negative connotation. This actually really surprised me. Thankfully, no one has been negative about it to our face. But, I guess now that I am a foster parent, I hear more negative comments on the news or social media. I’ve heard comments such as, “It would be better for the child to be aborted than to go from foster home to foster home” and “Foster parents are just in it for the money.”  The first one makes me gasp in horror. I know several foster families who are all wonderful people that have selflessly opened their homes to these children. While I’m sure there are some homes that are not good, the majority, I believe, are welcomed havens to these precious children. While it is so unfortunate that these children are put into this predicament in the first place, what a blessing it is that these “strangers” were willing to open their homes to them. I’m not saying this to lift us up in any way. I’m saying this out of respect for all of the wonderful foster families I know that have seen dozens of kids come through their home and have given them a safe, loving place to stay, even if it is just for a few nights. Now, the second comment makes me laugh hysterically. Oh my, trust me, no foster parent is “in this for the money” (or at least none that I know of). What little money you do receive, is literally spent entirely on the child. The board payments we receive barely cover the babies normal expenses (diapers, wipes, formula, clothes, etc.) and I know I’ve spent way more because I just can’t keep myself from buying these adorable little girl outfits they have these days!
  7. Fostering is SO rewarding. To be honest, I first went into this whole thing a little selfishly. I just wanted a little baby to hug and kiss on. But, as we went through our training and heard some of the things these kids go through, I truly felt humbled that God would choose me to do this. Now that we have two precious angels, I wake up every morning feeling so incredibly blessed to be a part of their lives. If/When they go back home, they will always and forever have a piece of my heart. I love seeing them smile, hearing them laugh, watching them grow, and seeing them get excited when I walk into the room. Just to have the opportunity to love them, even if it’s only for a while, is the greatest thing I could ever do with my life.  Being a foster parent definitely comes with its ups and downs, but I wouldn’t trade it for anything in the world.

God’s richest blessings,

Emily